Continuing from my last post... I feel very vulnerable sharing this, but here goes! Learning who I am as an artist included looking back through years of my work. I never had trouble with my artistic identity until recent years. Upon joining IG, I first felt inspired by the new mass influence. After a while, though, it was hard to navigate. I felt like I was failing to portray my photography in my own defined style because I didn’t know what that was anymore. I knew when I saw something I liked, though, so I took classes from people who inspired me. I quickly learned that this was a slippery slope. Learning techniques was helpful to me, but when someone showed how to create a specific look, it was not. I was left further from MY path and also worried people might see my new stuff and think I was a copycat. (I am the kind of person that prefers to hand-edit and take full control over each manipulation. I want to know what stuff does, not just be told to use it. When I first began taking paid client work 8 years ago, I was introduced to PS actions. They can be real time savers, but I ended up creating my own. Same for presets.)
I then decided to grow by shooting daily. I had mostly used a documentary standpoint, where my camera was an observational tool, capturing what I saw without manipulating anything or any major edits. It felt important to me to document things as they naturally were, and though they don’t all look cohesive, I have SO many beautiful memories in these photos. These here are some favorites.
By the end of 2017, I was burning out from this approach; life was too busy to keep it up. I learned SO much from daily shooting but was ready for change. Hence, my focus on “intention” by the start of 2019. Slowing down let me turn inward. 🙌🏻 I took time to identify where my long-standing inspiration comes from and what deeply influences me in life, not just art. I haven’t shot or shared much since my new frame of mind, but I am revitalized, dreaming up ideas, and creating other art in the meantime. 🧡